Is it any freakin wonder?

Today the pain in my ass is my BF's family. Not the one we associate with but the one that we dont. Regardless of what happened between his parents many, many years ago it seems as if someones true colors are beginning to show.

My gripe is this: why put forth the energy to be nice to people, to put up an obvious facade of caring when you really don't? Doesn't that expound alot of time and energy? Don't say your want to be involved when you don't. Don't say you want to come and visit when you don't. How about you just go back to acting like your true self and stay the hell away because you really dont give a shit? No one begged you to come around and I can certainly say that things have gone very well without your interference. SO why don't you focus on giving money to and partying with your son's ex (the one who pretty much drove him to the crazy house after dragging him thru the poor house). Shes probably screwing you hubby (or is at least trying). Loving the grandchildren that you have chosen to have in your life cause quite frankly I am glad that you haven't messed with my kid. Continue to act like you are so much better than your roots and family. Cause we all know you are just a drunk who walked off and sold out her first born for a shiny new life with your old, drunk husband and new kids. Actions speak louder than words people. You fucking suck and so does your family.

I can see thru you, see your true colors. Inside your ugly, ugly like me. I can see thru you, see to the real you.

SHEW!

Since my last post things have been on an upswing. After deciding to let things of the past go things have been much better with me. I don't seem to be so brooding, fault finding, whiny ,etc. Dr. Phil says that we must learn from the past but we must strive to make the future better. Otherwise we are backwards living people. I have learned much from his book "self matters". I view my better half in a more positive light and am not afraid to expect him to act like an adult. I am doing better in relations with my fam and ex-husbands also. It is like a weight has been lifted. For real. So yeah, I have had a pretty good week.

In other news, the twins were down for their spring break. I got to spend alot of time with them this visit and delight in getting to know them more and more. They are bright, funny, and thoughtful girls. And they fit in very well with the fam their dad and I have got going on. I look forward to spending more time with them this summer. But between running around with them, working on vehicles, chasing after baby, and everything else, I am worn out! We even went to have family pics taken, a first for me. It was really nice and I can't wait to see how they turned out.

My oldest son is starting to come out of his shell. This pleases me very much. He has always been so backwards and introverted it has worried me. But he is getting a little outgoing and spent alot of time playing with the twins this week. I guess there is hope for him yet. Can't reall imagine a child of mine being a wallflower!

Life is Beautiful.